Positive 20

For the record, turning 20 was happy.

I admit that i somehow dreaded the day to come and feared that I might morph into something supernatural once the clock strikes midnight (paranoia noted). I dunno. Although i didnt really felt this when I turned 10, theres just something about entering into another decade of handling (getting away from) responsibilities and still sticking to what i have always believed in. Plus theres my mom bickering that she is not getting any younger. My age is of course waaaaaaay directly proportional to hers.

Weeks before i officially entered adult-dom Ron told me that it was ok to "panic". He said that i should worry if im not worrying. Being anxious about growing up means I am aware of it's consequences and i might just be ready for them. Ron is always sober, meaning, its no bullshit when he really meant that my palpitations were a good thing.

My family was excited, my friends were excited, I was also excited. I never thought I would actually look forward to my 20 years of existence. This is the first time that i felt that more candles to blow out wasnt that bad at all. Not because theres more wishes to make but more things to be truly grateful for. The year hasnt ended yet but as early as now i am more than thankful to the surprises (which i realized were blessings) that has come my way and even to the people around me. There were some surprises that were not easy to deal it, surprises that left a mark of hurt or a moment to question but then again God (Morgan Freeman) said "if somebody prayed for courage you think God will give them courage or an opportunity to be courageous?".

Lesson: The next time shit happens, say "ow opportunity". Moms would definitely appreciate kids toning down on their profanity level.

But seriously, I dont feel a bit old nor wiser. I feel that there are a lot of things to look forward to (alcohol to digest) and turning 20 marks another year to see things at a better perspective.

POSITIVE!!!!

Do i need to elaborate more on what happened?

like really...

Thanks to: Carlo, Juan, Rica, Tetet, Aldrin II, Eubert, Kuya Donst, Tingst, Maam Juvy, Paul (same birthday!), Sir O, Maam Janey, Maam Chandy, Borge, Maam Lluisma, Maam V, Dino, Beach, Alan, Reynan, Leavia, John, Jane, RJ, Mer-Ain, Ron2x, Aiza and her sister, and whoever stopped by for drinking the night away...

PS. To all who werent there, but were definitely floating in my mind we got your drinks covered, and thank you from the bottomless pit of my intoxicated heart.