Last night a man from the past asked me something i did not dared to ask him when I learned that he had found someone. Someone who happened to be the next one after me, someone whom i can only wish treats him right and he will treat right. Out of decency and i guess of pride, I kept my question to myself because time and a certain degree of maturity had made it possible for me to move on. And with that comes the reality that we don't actually get over loving someone, we still do, in newer ways that is, we just happen to find someone who we can love more, more than we could have possibly thought of before.
It felt a little awkward being caught off guard but i guess it was about time to settle the score. He needed to hear it from me, and i myself needed to hear what I was about to say.
It was a yes or no question but i took my time to answer, not because i didn't know what to say but because I just cant imagine Aldrin being out of the picture....
So i told him my thoughts and I guess from that a permanent ink has been drawn on the line.
I believe i have known him enough to defend him from myself that he wasn't intending to screw up my mind or offend someone. He was just trying to look out for me, of what i have become after him. He needed to get over his "need to know" feeling because he had honestly told me that although he was the one who left without prior notice, he now feels that he is the one left behind.
He wast the one who broke my heart to minute fragments, who turned his head away when i told him i still needed him but, he is the one who im helping out shrug off his assumptions that fate has thrown him bad karma. I want him to get rid off that because i never wished him bad things i even heartfully wished that he gets to have the best things in life. To be honest im not even sure how to deal with him or even on if i should be even dealing with him to begin with. All I know is that it would help a lot if at least one person believes at what he is capable of even if he ran out of it for himself.
And i couldnt have done it, if i dont have someone who lets me be the better person that i should be.
im just ok with that...kabalo man ko na ako man ka
the hmmmmmmmm look
3 comments:
pero day..pogi points kaayo kung ang mga ex mangutana jud kung kinsa na atong mga uyab noh??
mura ba ug mahugno ilahang world kung kita happy kaayo sa atong mga love life. :D
ma proud pud baya ta oi na mamalita sa mga ex na da bestest gyud ang atong mga boytoys karun :d
oi...naay indio haha
mamaligya ko ug IKEA.. palit ka?
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