Friday, August 6, 2004

Coffee with Tito

Earlier today my tito text me to go to the mall and meet up with him. I kinda hurried to take a bath and dress up since my ass wasnt able to wake up for my 7:30 Social Orientation class (sorry sir chito hehehe). My tito was sipping his usual brewed coffee while reading a newspaper. When i got near his table i kissed him on the cheek (hindi ako nagmamano sakanya) and sat on the table. He asked me to order a drink and a bite too.

Tito asked me about my week. I told him the usual school stuffs and the boredness of college. He laughed about my story of pervert professors and the current scandal that has been happening in the campus. As i sip my cappuccinno and had a pause. I looked at my tito and the idea that his being like a dad to me suddenly came up. My dad and i never talk about this kind of stuff. I cant tell him jokes, sarcastically describe my life and even share a cup of coffee with him. I have to take credit for my tito for being addicted to caffeine.

My tito is still a bachelor and i assume has no plans of getting married. Im not certain how old he is all i know he's in his mid 30's and younger than my dad. As far as i could remember i havent seen him dating or heard his dating some chick. His too preoccupied with his bussiness and his obsession for mountain bikes, scuba diving and travelling. I myself wished he'd stay single for the rest or my life. It seems difficult to be still close to him when he's gonna have a wife and kids of his own especially that im the sort of favorite niece (hehehe).

We talked about books since he asked me about the coelho mania im getting myself into and the books he bought for me a month ago. I told him i have finished it all and i would appreciate if i buys me more hehehehe.

To, heard of the the vinci code?

diba nabasa na na nimo sa barne's? (diba nabasa mo na yan sa barnes)

wala pa, nakita lang nako. (hindi pa, nakita ko lang)

Its a good book. You should read it.

Palit ta to? hehehehe

(grins) ok later sa national.

My tito is so generous and i mean that with all my heart. Though his not the type whod give cell cards and gimik money he'd buy us books, shirts when he goes out of the country and pasalubongs of dunkin donuts and pizza when he gets home from work. His gonna be a good father to his family but for now his sticking with us, his stubborn nephew and neices. I was sad about the rumors that his gay and all those shit. So ok i had a hinch he was because of his unusual closeness with tito ming (his dentist friend) and the nude picture of a guy on his camera. But i just let it pass my mind. So what if he is or maybe his not. He might be homosexual, bisexual or whatever he maybe his still my tito and i have high respect for him. Im mad that people associate his being girlfriendless to assume the gossip that his not straight. Thats too shallow! For now i really dont care of what people think of him. I know that infront of me is a man who loads a responsibilty not meant for him. Taking care of us aint an easy task and im so thankful to him for the effort he does and the book im gonna be addicted to this week hehehehe.

and even if i confirm he is gay (but i cross my fingers on that) id still call him tito!! lol

Monday, August 2, 2004

Im A Sanguine

During our Soc. Or (Social Orientation) Class we had this personality test and i am a Sanguine.

Strengths of a Sanguine

The Extrovert | The Talker | The Optimist
The Sanguine's Emotions

  • Appealing personality = di naman masyado hahaha
  • Talkative, Storyteller = i dont have to deny that
  • Life of the Party = whoow!!! shawty in the hauz
  • Good sense of humor = do they mean sarcastic sense of humor
  • Memory for color = i still remember what periwinkle looks like
  • Physically holds on to listener = hold sa hands hehehe
  • Emotional and demonstrative = ako emote??? dunno lol
  • Enthusiastic and expressive = slight (i think lol)
  • Cheerful and bubbling over = ano ako Cali hahahaha
  • Curious = innocent kasi bwahahahha
  • Good on stage = this i have to disagree
  • Wide-eyed and innocent = si wideye?? hindi innocent yun hehehehe
  • Lives in the present = alangan naman the past ano ako matanda lol
  • Changeable disposition = flexible daw eh hehehe
  • Sincere at heart = syempre naman. i solemly swear :p
  • Always a child = wala na atang kokontra pa dito hahahaha

The Sanguine As A Parent (this part is not appliclable but its OK hehehe)

  • Makes Home Fun
  • Is liked by children's friends
  • Turns disaster into humor
  • Is the circus master

The Sanguine At Work

  • Volunteers for Jobs = I SERVE
  • thinks up new activities = madali kasing mabored hehehe
  • Looks great on the Surface = surface man o hindi surface hehehe
  • Creative and colorful = its in the art
  • Has energy and enthusiasm = hyper for short
  • Starts in a flashy way = para maiba hehehe
  • Inspires others to join = recruiter kasi hehehe
  • charms others to work = i disagree hindi ako charming hahaha

The Sanguine As a Friend

  • Makes friends easily = easily ba lolz
  • Loves People = people person nga raw ang mga sanguines hehehe
  • Thrives on compliments = KSP kasi ako hahaha
  • Seems exciting = not just seem! im exciting hahaha
  • envied by others = ngek!!! malay natin lol
  • Doesn't hold grudges = forgive and forget (mey short term memory kasi hahaha)
  • apologizes quickly = yeah i do.. i dont know why its seems natural.. sorry agad me
  • Prevents dull moments = I DONT WANT TO GET BORED
  • Likes spontaneous activities = as sponataneous as it gets is the better

Weaknesses of a Sanguine

  • Compulsive talker = i wont stop till you drop
  • Exaggerates and elaborates = SPECIFY!!!
  • Dwells on trivia = ughhh no comment
  • Can't remember names = this is so true hehehe
  • Scares others off = im quite a bully though
  • Too happy for some = sa gusto ko masaya ako paki nila
  • Has restless energy = lalo na pagnaka RH hehehe
  • Egotistical = i have this tendancy when im really mad
  • Blusters and complains = when im so pissed
  • Naive, gets taken in = wrong!
  • Has loud voice and laugh = BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
  • Controlled by circumstances = nope! im controlled by my choices (for now key mama muna lol)
  • Gets angry easily = di naman minsan lang
  • Seems phony to some = mga KJ yun sila hahaha
  • Never Grows Up = atleast im 5'3 or 5'4 hehehe

The Sanguine As A Parent

  • Keeps home in a frenzy
  • Forgets children's appointments
  • disorganized
  • Doesn't listen to the whole story

The Sanguine At Work

  • Would rather talk = marketing capabilities tawag nyan hahaha
  • forgets obligations = procastinator hehehe
  • Doesn't follow through = i dont deny
  • Confidence fades fast = how true
  • Undisciplined = i cant count how many times ive been summoned by the the school prefect
  • Priorities out of order = im not responsible but im reliable hehehe
  • Decides by feelings = uhuh but i avoid not to.
  • Easily distracted = by food hehehe
  • Wastes time talking = talking is learning ya know!

The Sanguine As a Friend

  • Hates to be alone = ayoko ngang ma bored eh. kulit!
  • Needs to be center stage =ngek! gusto ko nga sa likod hehehe
  • Wants to be popular = no need na bwahahahaha
  • Looks for credit = everyone needs some
  • dominates conversations = good conversationalist tawag don hehehe
  • Interrupts and doesn't listen = oi di naman ako ganun
  • answers for others = ang tagal kasi nila hehehe
  • Fickle and forgetful = acute amnesia
  • Makes excuses = pero lusot naman hehehe

Shawty Naughty

The good news...

hmmm... mah atm has lots of load hahahahaha....

The not so good news...

My 1st prelim on college sucked as in dont ask what my prelim grades were hehehe. I did quite good at my exams but due to my absences im crossing my fingers that they wont tell my parents my grades hehehe. Theres a good news though. My psychology teacher (the pervert gay,who told me to drop his subject) gave me a whooping 1.2 as my prelim grade.. whoooowww!! favorite teacher ko na siya and i havent been absent in any of my psychology class na hehehe...

The bad news..

Mom suddenly warned me about smoking and drinking. Who the hell told her about my vices?!!! I said yeah to whatever she was saying and tried to deny the accusations. Hindi ako lusot. My mom knows me well. arghhh..

The very very very bad news...

I went out with a couple of friends last saturday night. And the difference about last saturday from the previous saturdays was that this time it involved dancing. In short the recipe for the night was redhorse, marlboro and disco. It was fun i got a great partner (my friend's friend). He dances good even after countless bottles of beer. The music was great, crowd was ok not until something happened that i didnt expect will happen. Bodies got a little too close, lips where just a few centimeters away and it happened. (i dont need to elaborate "IT" further aight??). It was really nothing. No sparks or whatever shits. I conclude it was part of the dance nothing more nothing less.

A dance is a dance but the problem was..

TOINK.. what would my boo say??!!!! and number two TOINK.. two of my friends saw us. They were drunk but not blind. On the way home my friend talked to me and said he saw something. I smiled and just replied back that it was just a dance. He said i know but tenz, you thought it was him (referring to my guy) aight?!! I was quiet for a second and said.. yeah, the whole time.

I didnt feel guilty nor did i feel i betrayed my guy. Its just that yesterday i told him for the reason that he must know and i dont want to hide something from him that it aint a big deal. So ok, im stupid for being too honest and for hurting him again of which i promised i wont. But i just got to tell him...

Our conversation wasnt going that smooth since he was having trouble with his phone's signal. Obviously he was upset but quite thankful for my honesty and dont know what to do. Getting mad wont do nothing since im not there, i guess im part to be blame since i cant watch over you.Thats what he texted and i couldnt help but cry. I was pounding my head with my pillows for like an hour. I tried to sleep but i just cant. His blaming himself for a bad deed ive done. Thats not fair!!!! It was my fault not his. Why does he always do that?!

It was almost midnight and my eyes ran out of tears when he suddenly texted me.. Bbz, mahal na mahal kita...

Was i forgiven?

Pucha gumagawa talaga ako ng sakit ng ulo!!!!!!!!