Missing Or Not Missing The Sun Rise

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Its been raining for almost two weeks and damn its suppose to be summer here. I cant hardly see the sun when i wake up (which is around 1pm)..

For about 2 months or so i miss seeing the sun rise.. ive been waking up late due to late nights or i should say early morning internet addiction.. since the timezones are different i should be online on unusual hours but not really that unusual.. i often go to bed late back home due to excessive phone chats (reminds me of the time i got grounded for my stupidity)..

i just miss the sunrise and my early mornong coffee before i start my day... it was like my routine and due to some "vacation" it was all ruined or i should say paused for a while..

but back to the sunrise.. maybe its not really the sunrise im missing maybe its people who means like the sun to me (now i sound pathetic) people who made me shine and come out brught ( this is weird, i dont know what im talking about).. or maybe the person who makes my day worth leaving.. i miss his early morning greeting of hey-better-wake-up-or-be-late line.. i often wonder if he had this line as a template in his phone.. it may not sound as sweet as the flowers blooming nor it may not be as melodic as the birds chirping but somehow it makes me smile and get my butt out of my bed..

i miss those days.. i miss those mornings. i miss my sun.. and damn i really miss him!!! (now im beggining to be cheesy)

But im not looking forward to see the usual sunrise again when i get home.. the sunrise that starts my day with a smile. its 8 more days and ill be back home.. its been more than 2 moths that i missed the sun rise and i hope that 2 moths time is enough to make me forget about the sun rise i used to have.. (damn what the hell am i talking)

now il just keep on crossing my fingers that when i come back my sun rise misses me too oooppppsss erase erase.. let me do it again....

now ill just keep on crossing my finger that when i come back i wont see the sun rise as what i see it before (now this is much better)

Me

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me?? im me

i was named after the greek city of the goddess of wisdom but hell no wisodm wasnt bestowed upon me.. im currently stilll 15 and turning 16 in four months.. im the middle child (unwanted as many says) of 3 siblings.. and yes i feel unwanted hehehhe..(due to many incidents)

im just a girl looking for fun and adventure in life.. i call myself a bum or even a party maniac but hey bars over a nature trippin damn im gonna go for mother nature.. im not the typical teenager cause i always say im an eight year old kid trap in a 15 year old body.. its not that i dont want to grow up its just that being in a kids life is what i always want.. attention,no worries,love, toys u say it kids have it.. they should be the least deprived people in the world..

to make story short im a rebel who often break the rules than follow it.. but hey i know my limits.. for now i just want to have fun fun fun.. and ofcourse learn as i slowly tip toes to the stairs of life

this is me too:

*i have a great passion for guitar and music and im really into it.. i want to have the PATIENT trait which most musician wants.... but im not really good good its just i havent learned that much yet hehehe

*damn i love coffee.. cant leave with out it.. i know for a young age i should be drinking it but hey why would something be bad if it really feels good and i dont believe the crap that it kills brain cells cause coffee is my tranquilizier it soothens my brain hahahaha

*drinkung?? sure its part of my system.. its not that im in a bad crowd its just it happens.. im in highschool and stuff like that really happens

*smokin?? nyaah i pass on that.. i quit and hopefully im quitting for good.. but one puff wont hurt ayt?? hahaha

*books are good i dont believe that you should be called a dork or a nerd for reading a book.. im not into those cheesy pocket books nor fairytale stuff.. im into philosphy and some spiritual stuff (stuff not suitable for my age) hahaha.. i have this passion for philosphy that i got from browsing over my tito's book collections..

*i do admit that i write to get the stress off my body or the things that linger in my mind.. writting gives me the freewill to speak and the freewill to express ofcourse writtiing isnt complete without a cup of coffee : )

*i treasure my friends like myself... dont get me wrong but isnt it ourselves is our best treasure or its the other way around.. mess with my friends and ill mess with you big time.. i got this "i-dont-care-if-your-right-or-wrong-attitude" thats why i often get into trouble hahaha...

*i love coffee

hmm ano pa ba I LOVE COFFEE again hahahaha

bsta me is me?? i choose to be me cause i want to be me.. yun na yun

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This Is It

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ive been looking for so long of a thing like this and damn im so glad to find one.. thanks to some guy from a forum now i could reveal all the thoughts running through my mind..

its about 8 days to go and soon ill be leaving for the phillipines.. im now in new york having some quality time with my parents who i havent seen for around 2 years and so.. it was fun shopping and goin to other places but i hate it when they scold me about the stuffs that ive been doing back home..

blab this blab that.. what happened to you dear?? thats what they always say.. i just keep quiet coz i have no idea what to say.. i guess they'll listen but they wont understand thats why being quiet is my primary option.. but what the heck.. ill soon be leaving the big apple and be back to the place where i call my home..

it just realize that its so ironic how im so psyched to go home compare when i left for new york.. my friends were asking me how excited i was but duh!!! i wasnt!! probably i was nerveous of the sars that i might get in korea or hi jacking from some terrorist or be caught in the pathetic war of iraq ang us(i left about last week of marh the war thing was still a big craze).. maybe those were the feelings i felt but ECXITED?? nyaah..

but anyway im glad that ill be waiting 8 more days.. no more washing the dishes.. no more throwing the garbage.. no more freaking cold nights.. no more fatty foods.. no more subways and busses.. no more picture taking(damn i look like chinese now thanks to those bright flashes).. no more unlimited interent access but hey im looking forward for MORE OF HOME